perhaps i should be more selfish

I could not sleep last night, something happened, and struck me, and i was feeling very uncomfortable. I woke up in the middle of the night, to chat with my good friend Max. Perhaps, there are times that i should have been more selfish, and stop thinking for the others. this would spare me lots of headache, as i always think from other people perspective and causing me lots of issue.

i dont know what to do with it, maybe i will travel alone, since it is not a big deal for me. with or without her, i will still be fine.