no one say it is easy

Yesterday was a terrible day. I just have to get over T, at the very least, i got an answer.

today has been quite refreshing, been getting cues from the above, about my life in helsinki. i have been dreaming about home for the past few nights, that i flew back home. today in class, there is this quote,

"We choose to go to the Moon in this decade and do the other things, not because they are easy - but because they are hard! Because that challenge is one we are willing to accept, one we are unwilling to postpone and one we intend to win!" from JF Kennedy

No one told me Helsinki is an easy place to settle, with the cold winter, and the quiet finns. However, the reason why i chose finland, was partly to prove myself that i can handle the difference in climate and the working conditions. the alternative scene here is even worse than the ones in Singapore. The different cultures are bringing me to the limit, especially when you are alone in a foreign land, facing so many issues. and as with the quote, this challenge is the one i am intending to win, and i will get over T and have a fabulous time in Europe.

to end it off, i will have this lyrics from beck, nobody fault but my own

Nobody's fault But my own
Tell me that it's nobody's fault
Nobody's fault
But my own tell me that it's nobody's fault
Nobody's fault
But my own tell me that it's nobody's fault
Nobody's fault
But my own
Tell me that it's nobody's fault
Nobody's fault
But my own
Tell me that it's nobody's fault
Nobody's fault

it is nobody fault for the state i am in, but my own fault in playing with fire, as in the case with T. you wanted a simple life, i made it complicated. sorry for that. i wish you all the best in your life and may you find happiness with this guy whom you are dating