i miss you

been thinking of S a lot today. Miss him so much, is it because i wont get to see him tonight? things i always take for granted?

3 more weeks and i will see him again =) looking forward

3 days of heaven

S came and gone. Good times just fly past so fast huh? waited a month for S, the longest 1 month in my life. as fast as the blink of an eye, S has gone home. 3 days and 4 nights, prolly the best time i had in a long time. Slept well and ate well, it was good. During these 4 days, i came to understand more about him. I enjoy being with him, doing things together and sleeping in till late. I really miss him, and now, should i visit him in december?

i think i will be stronger

to handle this. time to work hard and forget all this shit about love =)

2 weeks in

i have not been myself, moody, listless, and lethargic. I still misses Europe so much. Will i ever find back my old self again?

oh well

i hate it, i hate myself. One year ago, i told myself not to fall in love with someone so far away. As if 7 hours flight is not that far, now, i got myself someone who is 13-14 hours flight away! how fantastic! i really hate myself.

life back in singapore

It has been a week back in Singapore. Still felt out of place over here. It is too noisy and too crowded. Really struggling to fit in here. Thankful for my family and friends being here with me, they are the reason why i miss Singapore.

Healthwise, still having backache. Miss the sauna and the swimming session which would helps abit. Visiting a new doctor on tuesday to diagnose the problem, but hopefully my back problem clear up soon!

still jetlagged and emotional. just like this, one week has past.... and i do miss europe.

the dream/nightmare

i had this dream about 8 or 9 times during my stay in helsinki. and it really came true =(